I have always had the notion that I am not attracted to looks. I still hold that notion but i have now found the right character. I have fallen for a movie character.
In all the fiction, I actually realised how she is made in the most perfect way for me. I barely want to watch anything else on TV except if it to repeat this movie and watch her, My woman character enchanting me into this love sick puppy.
Its ironic, I watch the whole movie with a stupid smile on my face, listening to every word that flows out of her mouth, as if she's saying those words only to me. As far as I'm concerned, regardless that it was scripted, they are my words.
She is an older woman, French for that matter with a witty tongue and a gorgeous smile. I love her accent and that she doesn't hide that expression of pleasure, joy - she wears her smile when her heart wants to smile. She walks deliberately and has a very interesting perception of life and love.
She probably doesn't exist. Probably? Okay okay, she doesn't exist; but she is still that perfect idea that I wish not to tarnish with any other film. I don't want to forget, or to lose the enchantment she has bestowed on me.
I guess the one thing that this has proven is that if you stay single long enough, you will lose your mind! that's okay, all I have to do now is learn French.
In all the fiction, I actually realised how she is made in the most perfect way for me. I barely want to watch anything else on TV except if it to repeat this movie and watch her, My woman character enchanting me into this love sick puppy.
Its ironic, I watch the whole movie with a stupid smile on my face, listening to every word that flows out of her mouth, as if she's saying those words only to me. As far as I'm concerned, regardless that it was scripted, they are my words.
She is an older woman, French for that matter with a witty tongue and a gorgeous smile. I love her accent and that she doesn't hide that expression of pleasure, joy - she wears her smile when her heart wants to smile. She walks deliberately and has a very interesting perception of life and love.
She probably doesn't exist. Probably? Okay okay, she doesn't exist; but she is still that perfect idea that I wish not to tarnish with any other film. I don't want to forget, or to lose the enchantment she has bestowed on me.
I guess the one thing that this has proven is that if you stay single long enough, you will lose your mind! that's okay, all I have to do now is learn French.
TV rewires your brain, alters your dreams and instead replace them with monochrome dreams!
ReplyDeletetimes we let our minds dwell in "Hollywood" for long and forget to acknowledge what is "real" , what is "here" and when we snap back to reality, that's when disappointments and too much wrong expectations kicks in.
though taking a break from reality is not a bad thing either i.e let our thoughts run wildly with fictitious happiness that our "being" so yearn,( but for what? if in the end we just end up really
sad and miserable)
(I know what you are thinking: why is she contradicting herself?) I guess what I am doing is pointing out the advs and disadvs of the theory, it can build and destroy at the same time!!
that being said, you are my favorite writer please keep writing and enjoy that french-learning-ride
Marisol Juan Carlos
Santiago
Thank you for commenting. Contradictions are definetly my kind of thing! And I'm glad you enjoy the blog. I will definitely start posting more often!
ReplyDeleteThank you! I am looking forward to that
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